Sunday, May 18, 2008

The fool in me

I have to be at the airport in 11 hours and naturally, I am just now beginning to pack...I have a long night ahead of me with the Radiohead concert and all.

My sister made the good point that I ought to explain my move to Thailand...Professor Kay Mueller of the Sociology department created a partnership recruiting Baylor graduates to teach at the Chitralada Palace School.  I was offered a position last year, but turned it down for several reasons.  When the opportunity presented itself again, I had to take it.  How often does a once in a lifetime chance come at you twice?  

I will be teaching conversational english at the Prathom Elementary School on the Palace grounds.  My contract is for one year, with the option to renew.  My only anxiety going into this is the idea of teaching, but I will certainly get the hang of it. As far as moving to another country, I don't see it any differently than moving from Dallas to Ft. Worth.  

Really, there is nothing I enjoy more than having Life come along, surprise me with a left-hook, box my ears, grab me by the ankles, shake me around, steal my milk money and muss up my hair.  At which point, I can straighten myself and with a chin propped up by nothing more than a little pride and a whole lot of gusto, look Life square in the eyes and say, "Oh yeah? What else ya got?"

On other hand, I often wonder if things would be easier if I were a bit more conventional...if I could just be content to stay in Dallas and get married.  Instead, here I am, a young, tattooed woman who cuts off all her hair and casually announces she will be moving to Asia.  I believe Theodore Rubin said it best: "I must learn to love the fool in me: the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries."

...ya know, I think he's right. I don't think I'd have myself any other way. 

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